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  • morgans vlogs
    morgans vlogs7 days ago

    I love you 🖤 even if you don’t feel loved remember that you are and life always works out for the best

  • Valerie Rainbows

    Valerie Rainbows

    17 hours ago

    @morgans vlogs I know how you feel, and you are not alone. You seemed so much happier when you were with your parents, and sweet grandma. Big hugs you can do it. And that lady was rude for sure at your class. ❤️

  • Kali MacKinnon

    Kali MacKinnon

    Day ago


  • Chareena Acosta

    Chareena Acosta

    2 days ago

    I hope you know this for yourself, too, Morgan. 💜 HUGS *

  • Lynn Smith

    Lynn Smith

    2 days ago

    @Shari Lynn like you can't tell anyone what to do you're pathetic it's called freedom of speech.

  • Shari Lynn

    Shari Lynn

    2 days ago

    Honey, you need to go see a doctor. You are definitely depressed and may need some antidepressants. I mean that with love. 🌷

  • Cass Kost
    Cass Kost6 hours ago

    You crying while eating breakfast was honestly heart breaking but eye opening for me. Like I’m not the only one who feels like this. Im not the only one who cries randomly and feels so low some days. Im sorry you go through this too. I love your videos and I love how real you are. ❤️

  • Tash
    Tash7 hours ago

    Alright, so as an aggressive loving friend, I would come over and pack your bags and take you to places that will make you happy. And if I were your friend, I would buy plane tickets to get there and take you to Walmart or something. You are someone who needs to be around people physically and be with someone who vibes with you. I can’t be alone otherwise I will break down. It’s not about being reliant on someone, it’s about growing with someone next to you, lover, partner, or friend- whatever. You need that Morgan, and I hope you can find it.

  • Jake Kardashian
    Jake Kardashian9 hours ago

    This was crazy to watch because I've never quite related to a video like this?

  • dolita windo
    dolita windo11 hours ago

    literally every different part of this adhd filled video is just literally and unexplainably MY FREAKING LIFE

  • Erin
    Erin12 hours ago

    I have never related to anything that made me laugh so hysterically before. I feel ya girl!

  • Morgan L
    Morgan L13 hours ago

    girly if you don't move back to Colorado I stg

  • dolita windo

    dolita windo

    11 hours ago

    I have never related to someone on this level and just 🥺

  • Johana Rodriguez
    Johana Rodriguez13 hours ago

    morgan got a dump truck

  • Lisa Lynn
    Lisa Lynn15 hours ago

    Morgan you are brilliant, smart, and gorgeous. And next time tell that lady to "fuck off" dang it!

  • Samantha Calvillo
    Samantha Calvillo15 hours ago

    Morgan, thank you so much for your vulnerability. This video made me cry because it made me feel seen and me feel hope. Praying for your peace and happiness. Thank you for your unmatched magic that you give this world and this platform. ♥️

  • Karlee Mihailov
    Karlee Mihailov16 hours ago

    Morgan you are a force to be reckoned with! So incredible, funny, kind, strong. Keep doing you girl!

  • Madison Brown
    Madison Brown16 hours ago

    Sis just move back to the 303 and be my best friend already! You’re incredible and you’re so valid for your feelings. I know things will turn around for the best. Keep pushing baby girl you’re doing great💕

  • K D
    K D16 hours ago


  • erin nicole
    erin nicole16 hours ago

    Morgan, you are amazing and you are enough. Please keep doing these raw videos, you are so special and help me through my tough moments. ❤️

  • K D
    K D17 hours ago

    I feel this in so many ways. This is me literally every day trying to get through life. It’s nice seeing big-time creators showing real emotions like real people.

  • Really Though
    Really Though17 hours ago

    Jesus is the way and life will never be the same in the best way :)

  • asap.kates
    asap.kates18 hours ago

    ill be your bestie morgan lets facetime

  • Alicia U.
    Alicia U.19 hours ago

    im glad i watched this after i was having a depressive episode or something along those lines, definitely makes me feel less alone

  • Sydney Macoretta ♡
    Sydney Macoretta ♡19 hours ago

    the fact that all of those sunglasses looked so good on you haha, i feel like none look nice on me i'm jealous!!

  • Nora H
    Nora H19 hours ago

    Something that really helped me when I used to feel really numb is practicing gratitude. I would write 10 things I am grateful for each morning in detail for 28 days (takes 24 days to form a new habit). It's hard to do it when you are in that state but if you push through, it will change your life for the better. I didn't feel numb after the 28 days were over! I also started recently doing Qigong 10 minutes every day , it's a gentle form of martial arts (kind of like Tai Chi) it's amazing for moving stagnant energy, helps with depression and sleep! Think Vitality with Jeffery Chand is a great youtube channel for learning Qigong!

  • Hannah Makes It
    Hannah Makes It21 hour ago

    Something that has helped me post moving cross country and leaving my entire life and having no friends was figuring out my love language and doing things that fulfill that for me. My top love language was acts of service so self care, cleaning, organizing, yoga and baking/cooking are things that help me feel better. My other love language is quality time, so forcing my self to date myself and go on picnics alone, hikes, reading even though i'm not a reader lolololol I'm liking the book "what I was doing while you were breeding" by Kristin newman.

  • Hannah Makes It

    Hannah Makes It

    21 hour ago

    also come move to Portland, we can be friends

  • Ray1506
    Ray150622 hours ago

    I have never related to someone on this level and just 🥺

  • Alicia
    Alicia22 hours ago

    Morgan- I know how you feel... I have struggled for a long time to feel happiness. Stay strong Girl.

  • Sylvia Claire
    Sylvia Claire22 hours ago

    Can we be friends and have mental breakdowns together 🥺👉👈 ❤️

  • Kimberly Quinn
    Kimberly Quinn23 hours ago

    Thank you, thank you, thank you, for posting a video that can sum up exactly how I feel. I always feel so close to you, because I can tell we feel the same way about life. By you being strong and brave enough to post this, you are helping others like myself that is working on these mental issues as well, that we’re not alone. Bless your heart, thank you for making a video that I can share with others, that might be struggling to understand why we tend to feel this way, and what it’s like. I was literally already sitting here feeling like this, when I started catching up on your videos. ❤️🙏🏻

  • brittneyshaffer1999
    brittneyshaffer199923 hours ago

    No need for gd.

  • brittneyshaffer1999
    brittneyshaffer199923 hours ago

    Oh my goodness**

  • ertemyha
    ertemyha23 hours ago

    Hope you move out of LA

  • saba dokhnadze
    saba dokhnadze23 hours ago

    On 13:12 she looks like a boss women!! Like soo hot 🥵

  • Abigail G
    Abigail G23 hours ago

    What is the reason you’re staying in LA? Every time you’re in Colorado you seem at your happiest, I want you to do what you want but I also feel like leaving LA might be the best thing for you :((

  • Susanna Pasillas
    Susanna PasillasDay ago

    You aren’t alone! I definitely feel this way all the time. It’s an awful feeling

  • Silita Pheng
    Silita PhengDay ago

    Morgan. Thank you.

  • Andrea Smith
    Andrea SmithDay ago

    Morgan, I absolutely love you and you are such a beautiful soul ❤ You don't even know how much I can relate to you and you are so right. You are transforming into your highest self for the betterment of your life. It is NOT an easy journey but eventually it'll all make sense and you'll understand why it happened. I have currently gone through this , still going through it (especially when it comes to friendships) I have recently started up Tarot reading and its opened a whole world for me and I have been able to give to others the clarity and assurance they need. Please if you wanted to, I would so love to give you a free Tarot reading to give you some encouragement that you're on the right path ✨💖 either way I am sending you love and light. You got this girl

  • Tati Simpson
    Tati SimpsonDay ago

    I would definitely talk to their manager after this lol

  • Dawne Everett
    Dawne EverettDay ago

    U r doing something right. U r looking and sounding a lot more together than last year. Love ya gurl

  • Jessica Hughes
    Jessica HughesDay ago

    You probably will never see this butttt every thing in my life is incredible and amazing. We’re getting financially stable our son is healthy we both have nice cars a great apartment we have incredible jobs and we’re making friends and I’m literally not happy and I want to die and that’s on mental illness. I just feel awful and I don’t have a reason to feel bad I just do. I’m taking anti depressants and I’m getting better. I just still have those days where I wanna die. So you aren’t alone and I love you and I wish we could be friends 😂

  • Haley Crowe
    Haley CroweDay ago

    bottom feeder is just... a unique choice of words LMAO

  • R G
    R GDay ago

    never related to a video so much, in the past few months I've felt just like you have this past week but feels good to know I'm not alone. Subscribing!

  • Olivia Gladney
    Olivia GladneyDay ago

    This is how I feel everyday it feel so good to know that I’m not alone. I relate to you so much and this so much more thank you

  • Aisha A
    Aisha ADay ago

    Girl GET OUT OF LA that doesn't mean leaving California just move outside of LA

  • Katie
    KatieDay ago

    im eating a chocolate waffle right now and its amazing

  • A B
    A BDay ago

    I love you mama, you got this! Change is hard but it is good! new journey ahead

  • Jessica Carrasco
    Jessica CarrascoDay ago

    baby move back to colorado. l.a is toxic and you need to be with your family. i really hope shane and ryland do the same you all need to get far away from cali and be together back in colorado

  • Josey Thompson
    Josey ThompsonDay ago

    I thought your jeans looked nice on you if it helps and hope things get better ❤️

  • J Williams
    J WilliamsDay ago

    Morgan needs a midsommar group cry

  • Jeff Vanlaarhoven
    Jeff VanlaarhovenDay ago

    I have always found that having more friends leads to having more drama in my life. I keep a very small group of friends and my life is amazing.

  • Mariah Daynell
    Mariah DaynellDay ago

    You’d be a good mommy , please take your time, do it whenever you’re ready .. but when I had my son , and I kinda tried to bond when he was in me still , it was like I was never alone even when I was in my bed alone crying I’d be like ,,, oh :. I’m not alone and it helped ... and then I’d just tlk out loud alil and tell him I love him and try to do something like watch a moviee to make me happy ,, now he’s 3 ,, it’s hard but my son is my sunshine he’s so happy and energized 😂it makes u think like wtf i used to be this hype , but it gives u something to do because you want them to explore the world and Experience the things u did like just playing out in the mud , Or going to the park / zoo ,, I’m on my all alone mommy night 🍷 so maybe this isn’t the best advice 😂 that’s why I said one day .. one day you’ll never be alone , you can even adopt 💕💕💕😇😇

  • jasminehks
    jasminehksDay ago

    When she is eating breakfast telling herself everything is ok, that is me

  • Lyndsay Scott
    Lyndsay ScottDay ago

    Girl, I think you may be depressed. You can have a picture perfect life and still feel sad inside. I think you would really benefit from seeing a therapist and digging into to the reasons of why you feel unhappy and what you can do to change that. Therapy literally rewires your brain and it could give you the guidance you may need. I hope you can feel better 😊.

  • zuygj bnsv
    zuygj bnsvDay ago

    Morgan saying she is okay but slowly descending into a meltdown gives me serious WandaVision vibes from episode 8

  • Emily Reis
    Emily ReisDay ago

    Thank u for this video. I feel this exact same way and sometimes I feel like I'm going crazy or like I'm not normal. It is very comforting to know that someone is going through the same thing. These are some things that specifically stood out to me; When u were talking about how everything could be fine but u still feel down or sad for some reason, like something is missing and when u said u feel a pit in your stomach. I feel so sick to my stomach everyday because I always feel sad or lonely. It always feels like I'm off and it gets very exhausting, mentally and physically. I hope u feel better soon and u are a wonderful being. U are so kind and funny, I really enjoy your content. And u look absolutely beautiful as well!

  • zuygj bnsv

    zuygj bnsv

    Day ago

    Cymbalta. I'm proud of you.

  • Scully on the Rocks
    Scully on the RocksDay ago

    why are we both going breakdown right now...... literally crying right now

  • Sherry Harris
    Sherry HarrisDay ago

    Morgan, you honestly are one of the most amazingly beautiful women I've ever seen. I watch all your videos and you have an awesome sense of humor. I relate so much to alot of what your issues are. I'm 48 going to be 49 this year and I have grown so much since 36. You are perfect the way you are. Just have to learn to see that inside yourself. I love you best wishes.

  • Lori Oglesby
    Lori OglesbyDay ago

    You know your a grand,other when u look at the DC shoes n say, man those look so comfi... But seriously id wear PS you are so pretty and have such a real personality, It is helpful to know i'm not the only one feeling down these days... But Girl u r so amazing and so smart with some of your self reflection. Even at my old age I love watching you and your brother's content! and PSS Y'alls mom is just the coolest!

  • Xerxes Ashleyy Tv
    Xerxes Ashleyy TvDay ago

    The pressure of just existing- thats everyone now struggling during this pandemic. For me, add the pressure of parents having high expectations from you. Im at the brink of jumping off a balcony rn

  • i am mimi
    i am mimiDay ago

    When you said you’re at a point when you are afraid for the sun to set cause that’s when the bad feelings set in, Ive never related more!!!!!!!!!!!! Morgan you’re my family. Thank u

  • Miah Wagner
    Miah WagnerDay ago

    morgan im so sorry you're not feeling yourself right now :/ I have to say though that you are STUNNING!! i love your style and your soul is so pure and I just want to say that you are loved by so many! for real though you are so hot it's kind of unreal.

  • Ashley Pless
    Ashley PlessDay ago

    Morgan plz talk to a therapist😟

  • Meanwhile
    MeanwhileDay ago

    its crazy cuz I literally have felt like that and tbh I never understood how people can be so effected by depression but then I learned the hard way hope you keep on going forward Morgan

  • Izzy Byrne
    Izzy ByrneDay ago

    oh my god Morgan, this made me so sad! But I admire your honestly and I appreciate you being so brave in sharing your lows, because we do all have them! It's about time someone normalizes not being okay sometimes! God bless, hope you're feeling better

  • Devereaux
    DevereauxDay ago

    Honey, I love you. What you're going through sounds like panic attacks. I have them too, ever since COVID started last March. Please talk to your therapist or primary care physician about it. I take Busbar & Pristiq for my anxiety, but even on medicine you're still going to have bad days (but you'll be able to emotionally handle them better). ❤

  • Camila Cornejo
    Camila CornejoDay ago

    I bought new DC shoes!!!!!

  • Cynthia Harris
    Cynthia HarrisDay ago

    I NEVER COMPARE MY SELF TO PPL EVER....... not wreath my time no point in it all, nothing but hot hair waste of time........

  • Laura Heinz
    Laura HeinzDay ago

    Dude ryland sucks. You don’t. Get over LA. Move on. Alone.

  • laskin riubn

    laskin riubn

    Day ago

    control. Thank you

  • Crystal Causland
    Crystal CauslandDay ago

    You are so sweet and funny, life will get better. Life really is the shits and we have to keep pushing passed the horrible pandemic. I hope you feel better it's so overwhelming I'm sending you a big hug,😘💜💜💜😁

  • laskin riubn

    laskin riubn

    Day ago

    need to realize that

  • Kelsie O'Mara
    Kelsie O'MaraDay ago

    Being a young adult is hard... theres so many directions to take and you take one and do a U turn and the cycle goes on.. currently I'm attempting to switch careers but what happens if I get into it and dont end up liking it.. like I'm already starting over.. I definitely felt this HARD when I was deciding to quit my job, wtf is my purpose?! This is just the eb and flow of young adult hood... but on a real note I do hope your getting some amount of help and talking to someone about this

  • Carlita Bonita
    Carlita BonitaDay ago

    You are doing a lot of good things.. getting up, going out... all of that. I had that too... but I couldn't make the efforts as quickly as you did. I finally am now.. but I had to get out on Cymbalta and that worked sooooo well. That dark cloud lifted after about a month. Prozac used to work for my anxiety so well but with my horrible depression I had to switch to Cymbalta. I'm proud of you.

  • Depressing vlogs
    Depressing vlogs2 days ago

    Morgan’s literally glowing here ! As always

  • alondra Lima
    alondra Lima2 days ago

    I broke down this week too. To the point where I was on the floor with my head down crying out of frustration, sadness, mental pain and stressed out to the point when I'm trying extremely hard to keep it all together. People love to criticize and have their own opinions but those can really hurt . You just break. I get it. Update I feel better today(: remember we always have ups and downs in life. We are in this world together.

  • GlamClo
    GlamClo2 days ago

    Your definitely not the only one I get this all the time look ok on the outside but breaking in the inside but your strong and beautiful and you’ll get through it love you so much take care 💚🖤

  • alondra Lima
    alondra Lima2 days ago

    Life is beautiful ❤ Only think about the positive. Love u morgan!

  • Chareena Acosta
    Chareena Acosta2 days ago

    Morgan, please get out of Los Angeles. You are so happy when you’re back home with your family.

  • Isabelle Paulino
    Isabelle Paulino2 days ago

    I wish I could be your friend in real life and just give you a hug and motivation 🥺

  • Chanteil Lemons
    Chanteil Lemons2 days ago

    Girl same. I think we can all relate to how you are feeling, especially with what we are gong through right now.

  • Rachel Bond
    Rachel Bond2 days ago

    I went through this and was later diagnosed with ADHD!

  • Shahbaz ahmed
    Shahbaz ahmed2 days ago

    Hi good nice

  • Cayleen Bonneville
    Cayleen Bonneville2 days ago

    I’m not trying to scare anyone because I don’t regret it and we need this. However ever since my j&j vaccine I’ve been completely off mentally, I’ve been totally depressed, everything is hard to do (even showering), I’m mad at literally everyone, it’s so frustrating. I feel like a total monster and I’m doing my best. Its just not going well for me.

  • las palmas
    las palmas2 days ago

    i know its going to sound weird but i needed to see this video right now. Thank you for sharing

  • Kira Michele
    Kira Michele2 days ago

    I'm going through the same thing. I graduated college two years ago and since then I've been so goddamn lonely and just trying to live like I did then and I can't, I just can't and I need to realize that

  • Tia Wang
    Tia Wang2 days ago

    Morgan thanks for the video, I am going through the same depressing stage of my life, and this video really remind me that I am not alone, and it is normal to feel sad and out of control. Thank you

  • Celeste A.
    Celeste A.2 days ago

    you are beautiful inside and out. ❤

  • Elisa Ashley
    Elisa Ashley2 days ago

    Morgan, can I be your big sister? We can share stuff so neither of us drown in THINGS and you will be the young pretty one! Hugs.

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    Maja Jansson2 days ago


  • Alice Wong
    Alice Wong2 days ago

    This video is relatable af

  • Sassy Ma
    Sassy Ma2 days ago

    Boo boo you just need a boyfriend...But what do I know im married and im so lonely and depressed..Oh God help us!

  • Bethany Gates
    Bethany Gates2 days ago

    This is so relatable, I feel the same way, completely empty. And I totally feel it more at night too.

  • Bethany Gates
    Bethany Gates2 days ago

    We should bring Osiris’s back 🤣🤣🤣

  • Amplified by Nature
    Amplified by Nature2 days ago

    I’m sorry for your struggle, Morgan. I cried with you because I felt this so much. I have been there so many times. Hope you have better days soon. Also, you look SO pretty in that red dress. 🔥 I mean, wtf.

  • 505 Street Cars
    505 Street Cars2 days ago

    Depression is such a MFer isn't it? It's REALLY hard for someone who hasn't experienced it to understand what it's like. I feel the same way as you Morgan. I have really good things, people, and stuff in my life but....the hole is always there. And when you talked about even just getting dressed, and out of bed...ugh it feels pointless sometimes. But hearing someone else talk about the same things that effect me does help. So thank you for sharing, and I love you too.

  • Jacqueline Temple
    Jacqueline Temple2 days ago

    Take it from a 58yr old mum of three grown sons, depression/anxiety rarely has a defined reason. I suffered with postnatal depression so severe I was hospitalised (not the medical kind either) and I learnt so much from looking back, mainly that some days it felt like my world was caving in and some days 'the sun was shining' but nothing happened to make those days different! My husband has often talked about coming in from work not knowing what version of me would be there, sunshine happy or sobbing because I forgot to buy eggs that day...I noticed you trying to convince yourself that everything would be ok or smiling when you really wanted to cry, pretending to 'enjoy' yourself because you don't want others to worry about you . I saw myself in your eyes, worried what people will think if you fall apart. Teach yourself to be aware that it's ok to have bad days when you're dealing with depression, it doesn't mean you're not getting better, it just means that today is a tough day. Keep a mini journal of good days (or hours) and bad days, over the course of a month try to aim for more good days than bad. You may have already done this but just in case, get your thyroid levels checked (I didn't get diagnosed till I was almost 40!) and your Vitamin B/hormone levels checked. So many people think vitamins aren't important because you can buy them over the counter, but the B vitamins (there's a few) are massively important to your mind and body, I only know this because my thyroid condition means I can't store them no matter how healthy I eat. If I sound like a fruit loop, ask google lol...and please, just don't rule out a medical reason for your anxiety/depression. Sorry for the ramble but I wish someone had told me in my 20's what I know now. xx

  • toijg avnnr
    toijg avnnr2 days ago

    to forgiving her. Thank you for being authentically raw. A simple video can help the unexpected.

  • Nicci Florentz
    Nicci Florentz2 days ago

    My depression has never felt so represented before. Also, your growth is heartwarming

  • MartinsMusicChannel
    MartinsMusicChannel2 days ago

    sending you a virtual, socially distanced hug. Youre not stupid, if thats how you feel - thats how you feel.

  • toijg avnnr

    toijg avnnr

    2 days ago

    have, but I relate to you so much. Depression & anxiety can be a bitch, but it’s gotta get better, right? That’s what I keep telling myself. Love you Morgan 💜

  • fizzypop
    fizzypop2 days ago

    Thanks for sharing what you are going through Morgan >< You're not alone 🤎

  • Sophia J
    Sophia J2 days ago

    Things get worst before it gets better❤️ always remember things get better

  • Jerrica Salazar
    Jerrica Salazar2 days ago

    I’m so glad you uploaded this. Thanks for showing how it is for so many of us on a day to day basis!

  • Kim Van den Heuvel
    Kim Van den Heuvel2 days ago

    My friend just pointed me to your video. You're my new spirit animal. Hang in there, girl. I'll try to do the same ❤️

  • Janet MJ Meyer
    Janet MJ Meyer2 days ago

    I am so sorry for your pain but so thankful for your video. I am sure you've helped others think and keep moving forward like you're doing. I will pray for you to have peace and a break through! 💞

  • Caitlyn B
    Caitlyn B2 days ago

    Oh my gosh Morgan! I know exactly how you feel. That was literally me all week 2 weeks ago. It's not just you who feels this way. The pandemic has been severely damaging all of us mentally. Just keep going! We will all get through this together! This will all be over soon!

  • sunflower
    sunflower2 days ago

    Girl I love you. Sending you all my love and warmth your way.